Running out of time

Haven't updated the blog for a little while. Almost decided not to bother again but it's important to me to keep the story going. I fully believe I will one day be an Ironman. Today is 33 days away from IM Austria 2010 and it feels like it's really and truly slipping away. Had an appointment with the consultant today and although there was good news in that no surgery is required, he said he wanted to see me again on 16 July which is well after the race. He also say no training although then conceded and said I could do static bike, when I pressed him further.

Was really upset when I came out and Chris encouraged me to go to the gym which I did. Did an hour on the recumbent bike and it was just what I needed but the endorphins haven't lasted as long as I'd like and tonight feel down. Went on IM Austria event thread on the Tritalk forum and everyone was talking about the anticipation of the race and getting the race pack including the branded IM Austria bottles and it was like being crossbowed through the heart. Although probably silly to put myself through it, it is probably good practice for going to Austria which in all likelihood is going to be a torturous time. But not going is not an option. I started this as part of a team and will finish it as such too. In the meantime, I will still keep praying for a miracle and drinking my boneset tea until it goes out of fashion.